Friday, June 22, 2012

mistakes and punishment

Today I’d like to talk a little bit about anger.  This comes after my hit and run post, but really has nothing to do with it, it has been percolating in my head for days now, and I hope that it is formed enough to flow well.

It all started last Saturday, I was at work [Family Video] when a lady came in with a copy of Sherlock Holmes that froze on her.  I cleaned the disc and then put it into our DVD player to see if it fixed the issue, it did not, in fact it seemed to make it a little worse that it was.  Unfortunately that was the only copy that we had, so I couldn’t give her another one, the store across town also only had one and it was rented.   She had rented both the first and second Sherlock Holmes and so I asked me what she should do, I told her that if she wanted to she could bring the second one back and I would credit it to her account also, but I also said, ‘Just so you know, you don’t have to watch the first to enjoy the second.’  I thought I was being helpful, I have told many people the same thing about both Holmes as well as many other movies that are sequels to the Character but not the story.  I found out on Monday that this was not only not helpful to her, but it made her angry.  To this end on her new customer survey she wrote ‘Retrain Kenny, he has a bad attitude.’

Also on Monday another customer yelled at me because I was [get this] being intimidating to her, a woman, because I said that the guy who checked her out last time was me.  We were having a conversation about late fees, I told her I said one thing, she told me I said something else, so I was being intimidating.  I was going to take the late fees off and even give her the current items for free but because I was intimidating she said to just close her account and she would never come back to a place that was intimidating to women.
I assume that most of you who are reading this know me and know that I am not in the least bit intimidating, I am in fact the guy that walks away when things don’t go my way, hardly ever complaining to the people who do wrong to me [just ask Mary it infuriates her sometimes].  To this end I am pretty sure that this was the first time that anyone has ever accused me of being intimidating.  The fact of the matter is that I may have actually been rude to her a little bit, I was angry that she was calling me a liar, maybe she was angry that I was calling her one, which I suppose I inadvertently was, only one of us could be telling the truth after all.

Then Monday night I was working with a coworker who came in and said that I need to pick your brain as a pastor.  This coworker proceeded to tell me that something was about to happen that their family did not approve of, and one family member told this coworker that if it happened God would punish them, and told a story of God’s punishment.  The family member said that when he was younger he had moved in with his girlfriend and that God gave this girlfriend cancer in order to punish him.  My coworker asked me if God did punish people like that.

I don’t understand the belief that God is some kind of kid with a magnifying glass and we are the ants that occasionally piss him off.  I mean do you really think that God works that way?  And even if he did why wouldn’t he give the guy the cancer, I mean it’s pretty twisted to cause the girlfriend to have cancer just so the guy could hurt.  In addition, don’t you think that if that was the way that God was we would almost all be in punishment constanly?  Wouldn’t Earth be Hell then?  Wouldn’t he just start zapping people left and right every time they said ‘Jesus Christ’ in the not nice way?  If it really worked that way we wouldn’t need  police or jails or even a justice system because God would just single handedly take care of it all. 

After all if living together is worth cancer what is thievery or murder worth?  Should they just be cast with boils or leprosy or ebola or something pretty bad?  Or maybe God does work that way but instead of the guilty being hurt he just goes for their loved ones, I mean why else would kids get cancer?  It must be the case of their parents sin, or their siblings, or maybe just a close family friend who would be sad that they are hurting.  I mean get real, where does it end?  Wouldn’t God be punishing us every second of every day for every time we sin against him?  I’m a pastor and I’m not perfect, I still screw up, why isn’t God punishing me more severely? Or is it coming?

I gotta tell you that I do not live in fear of my God, because my God sent Jesus who by his journey, his life, his words, his actions, his death, and his resurrection have convinced me that God is in the love and forgiveness business, not the fear and punishment one.

Peace and Love,
Pastor K

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