Sunday 1 of 2, I am getting to double digits today 9 of 40

So, I came up here about an hour ago and I haven't written a word until just now, but I am going to write two blogs tonight so that I can make up for missing yesterday, I was out of town for most of the day. The problem as I see it is that I don't even have a thought on one blog let alone two, I am hoping that if I start typing something will come out, its worked so far.

So, one of my songs based on the Psalms from 8 years ago today.

Past My Words

I have tried too many times
to explain away your mystery
and I forget to focus
losing myself in word pictures
forgetting what it means
to remain in you

and words aren't quite enough
they just can't say
words fail to explain the difference
between what I know and what I want to say

I have forced my way
down the path of no return
and I remember to remember
everything that I even knew
loosing past memories
remaining in you

you, oh, Lord
are somewhere past my words
and you, oh, Lord
are bigger, bigger than these thoughts

I try, I try, I try
to understand, to comprehend
I try, I try, I try
to apprehend, to take it in
but I can't I just fail again

somewhere, out there, past my words
somewhere, out there, past my words
somewhere, out there, past my words, you exist\

It was inspired by a reading of Psalm 40, a Psalm that begins with the idea of patiently waiting for the Lord. The problem is that back when I was writing this song I wasn't feeling very patient, I had spent x amount of days reading the Psalms as a whole [for the first time] and when you read them you realize that God accepts us no matter our emotional condition at the time. Sometimes we come in an attitude of worship, even joy, but at other times we come to God in pain, even anger. The Book of Psalms tells us to bring whatever we have to God, because God can take our worship, our joy, our pain, our anger, and anything else we may bring when we come to God.

Don't buy into those preachers that tell you that you must always be happy when you come to God. Don't buy into those people who tell you that you have no right to be angry with God, God can take it. Don't buy into the concept that God only accepts a certain type of emotion, a certain type of person, God accepts all at all times.

Peace and Love,
Pastor K