So, remember when I set out to write 40 blogs during Lent? I kind of miss that time. I miss the effort it took to write something again and again. I miss the creative outlet that it gave me. I miss writing, I haven't done it very much and each time I try it is rather difficult. Since I stopped my blogs every time I put pen to paper or finger to keyboard the letters and words and sentences and paragraphs come out only after a rigorous battle.
I tend to blame this on the addition of Henry to my world, but I did accomplish those 40 blogs with Henry in my life, so I suppose it is time that I man up and take the blame myself. I don't know why exactly, but my creativity in general and my talent for writing in specific has been in short supply recently. I know I have mentioned this before but there was a time when I would write song lyrics all of the time, other than a short chorus that I came up with on a particularly bad day with Henry I haven't written a song in several years.
I used to be able to bust out song lyrics, poems, plays, the beginnings of stories, and essays at a moment's notice. It took me several weeks to come up with a 200 word or so devotion for next years Christ Birthday Offering Devotional Booklet, in years past I could have written multiple entries in one day. Nowadays the only thing I create on a weekly basis is a sermon, which, son't get me wrong, is important, but even that only means putting a few sentences or as much a paragraph or two together since I moved to outlines instead of manuscripts. And yes that means that I come up with most of my sermon on the spot Sunday morning, which is a skill in and of itself, but I miss putting fingers to keyboard and seeing the words flow, filling up the blank screen in front of me.
So what? My hope is that I will become more focused on the creative process, both in creation and consumption, because I think part of my problem is that I have gotten away from the written word in general, since Henry came along I have read quite a bit less, which is no ones fault but my own. The good thing is that I used to be a voracious reader and writer so I have to believe that I can re-harness the skills that I have laid down. I for one hope that previous statement is true, I guess we will all see together.
Until Next Time,
Peace and Love,
Pastor K
